Little Update

I have been very busy in the past week with planning Will's 26th surprise birthday party. I planned a bbq cookout, fire pit included with some friends a family. Then scheduled his birthday off for him at work without him knowing and planned a day for me and him.

The party went really well and we had a blast. Will was so surprised I think he actually had some tears in his eyes. Then on monday we rented a boat (got upgraded to a ponton boat for free!) and went fishing together. This would be the first time I have been fishing on a boat so I was pretty excited. It was a relaxing time. Toward the end we found a pretty sand bar area, parked the boat and took a nap. So even though we only caught one fish in the whole four hours, it was nice to be together.

So on to the next event! We are looking foward to our one year anniversary next month where we have planned a bed and breakfast in St Augustine.

We keep busy working and getting through finacially. God continues to bless us and keep us in His good graces as I pray he does you as well.

~Steph

Read Between The Lies

So this week has been a good week. I have been fasting a different kind of fast this week. Basically I have taken something bad in my life and replaced it with something good. My bad thing was food. Since medically I cannot just stop eating, I have been eating healthy, basically put myself on a diet, a diet that will not end, just keep going. It has been something I have been wanting to do, just haven't put it into action.

So I have been back to my walking schedule of 2 miles a day and I love it. I feel as though I am back to the place where I need to be. Ever since getting married a year ago it seems as though I have been doing the juggling act with my spiritual life. But this week has helped me put things into a little more prospective.

I think God was just waiting for me to realize that I cannot do this married thing on my own. That in fact, I am going to need Him for the rest of my life. Doesn't matter how many books you read or how much experience you have, you simply just need Him Forever. The sooner sometimes that we realize that the better off we will be. Even when trying to diet, I need him, and it is those little things that I have realized.

There is this song by the Annie Moses Band that I have been listening to all this week. It is called "Read between the lies". The chorus goes like this.............

If I say that I don't need you, then I will go the same without you
Bitter truth lies deep inside, my desperate alibi
Can't you see that my soul is empty, trace the tears that I hide
If you love me, read between the lies

~Steph

Sidenote

So far, during this fast, I feel as though God is speaking things to me for the future and not the present, does that sound weird?

~Steph

Attitude

That's just it, Attitude. I have only been on this fast for one day and already I found myself loosing touch of what it all means. Last night my computer was acting REALLY slow and irritated me to death. I was trying to disconnect my ipod so that I could go on my nightly walk and it was not letting me, so I got really angry.

And then I stopped, sat down and said, "wait a minute", is this really the kind of attitude God wants me to have during this fast, I mean shouldn't I be a little more Zin natured?

So I closed my eyes and prayed that the Lord would give me the right attitude and maybe I prayed that my computer would stop being so stupid! lol. After I took that moment everything fell right into place. The computer was working fine and I was out the door and the rest of the night was right on target.

So I realized that I got so caught up in the feeling of just not eating and sometimes my focus is on that. But really If I asked God if he wanted me to fast and I felt led that this is what he wanted, shouldn't I have a better attitude?

So my prayer for this morning is that my attitude will reflect my heart.

~Steph

"To Fast For God"

Ok, so our Pastor has asked the church body to fast this week, yeah, hungry already.

Actually I am looking foward to this. The pastor brought up a good point yesterday about doing this with your mate and how beneficial that this will be for our relationship with God. So not only are we coming together to pray for our country, but praying for our marriage as well during this struggling time.

Will and I are taking different approaches to the fast, by fasting certain things. I suggested fasting tv but he didn't seem very willing.......lol.

So I will keep you posted on what God is doing with us during the week. I am looking foward to spending some much needed time with God.

Cheers to water!

Steph