Thursday, April 16, 2009

Moving on

Its been awhile since my last update, not that much hasn't happened, just didn't want to write about it, yet. I would have to say that in the month of March Will and I have been to more doctor appointments and I have more tests than I would like to think about. It has been hard since we found out that we had the miscarriage because even though it was over, it wasn't over.

The doctor had made the decision to give the body time to work things out naturally but when that didn't happen I got fustrated. I gave it as much time as I could. I will admit I wanted to move on. The hardest part for me was waking up every morning and having to remind myself that I was not pregnant and having to say it outloud so that it could sink in. I realize that I did not carry the baby that long, but it was still hard to take in.

We met with the doctor on Friday, April 10th and made the decision to do a D & C (Dilation and Curettage) since I had no bleeding and no sign of anything happening naturally. I had this done on Monday, April 13th at the Indian River Hospital.

I have had a little more pain the last couple of days but it is getting better and Will and I are moving on. I want to say a special thank you to one family member in particular, Kathleen and AJ, your words and your gift have touched our heart so much and we are so thankful to call you family, love you! Our whole family has been awesome throughout this entire situation and we couldn't have felt more love. Everyday we feel blessed even though the trial has been hard, our family reminds us that God loves us so much and is not going to let us forget it.

We look forward to the future and future good news ;)


Friday, April 3, 2009


I want to first start this blog by describing Micah and why I pick that as the title. I was sleeping the other night and was awaken for reasons unknown and decided to talk to God. I needed a name that would be fitting for a girl or boy and something that meant something. (To be explained) The name Micah was spoken to me. I thought how fitting, it really can be used for both a girl or boy, Thanks God. I immediately looked up the meaning and it means, "To Be Like God, or similar".

Micah's heart stopped sometime between March 21st and April 2nd. Micah is Will and I's first miscarrage. We know not the reasons or why God choose to take our little one and choose not to ask Him why. On the day we reach Heaven we will get to meet little Micah and will now know our little one by name.

I will share one thought of peace that God has given us thus far. All this time we have been praying for a healthy baby and we believe that Micah was just not healthy and that is the reason that God chose to take our little one so soon. We have faith that passes all understanding and rest on the shoulders of our all mighty.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

This has been a rollercoaster of a journey and unfortuantly for us, a public one. Usually with miscarriages you are able to keep them within a small group friends and family, but this is not going to be the case for us. We did choose to tell everyone at 6wks that we were pregnant and took that chance, a chance we do not regret. We do of course ask that you allow us to grieve privately. If you want to send encouragement email us at or

We are supported by two wonderful families and a wonderful group of friends. Our journey unfortuantly is not quite over yet, so we ask for prayers and thank you all for who have been praying.

Will and Steph